From Front Seat to Passenger
Two months into the new year and already, I've seen a lot of changes and transitions. This is true for my life as it is for those around me. One of my best guy friends packed his bags and moved to Boston. My girl friend chose to stay in Los Angeles and is now working there. Two of my closest friends are slowly stepping into the dating world for the first time ever. I can't even tell you how nice it is to be sitting in the passenger seat for a change. New seat, new perspective. I like it. I sat down earlier today to think about everything that has been happening in their lives and the first thing that came to my mind was, "It's about gosh darn time." My friends are incredible, extremely loving human being so I could not even imagine what it would be like when a suitable man is able to learn to appreciate them the way I appreciate them. I have a handful of friends who are in relationships, most of them are pretty committed and serious. Although I am happy that they are happy, sometimes I can't help but miss the good ole' days. I see them less. I talk to them less. In turn, I happen to also have a good amount of friends who are single and of course, when we're all together, we never ever fail to have a bad time. We have this mantra where it doesn't matter where we are, as long as we are right next to each other then we're going to bring the party to the party.
We've all had a good run, but slowly one by one, they are starting to look for something else. Something with potential and a future. Whether they know it or not, it's only a matter of time before they start to date and later, be in a relationship. I'm experiencing this right now with my best friends and it's so fun to watch. It has been a really long time and I love seeing the smiles on their faces when they all talk about their respective beaus. What's the best part about all of this? I'm not envious of them whatsoever. There's no ounce of fiber in my body that craves companionship or romance. Even the idea of it rarely ever crosses my mind. Normally, I would ask myself questions like, "Is there something wrong with me? "He's cute. Why don't you just go for it?" However, things are different this time around. I can tell you right now that I am perfectly content with where I am. I'm growing, learning, and experiencing things that are incredibly out of the ordinary so why am I going to trade all of that up? I won't and I wouldn't.
In summary, I love being in this particular box because for once, I get to throw in my insights and help them plan their Valentine's day weekend. For once, I get to be the one who screams in glee whenever my friend sits down to tell me about her recent date night. There's a sense of serendipity that is extremely difficult for me to explain or navigate, but it's nice to finally stop looking. Cheering on the side lines sure does give you a brand new perspective, but hey...I'm not one to complain ;)
